Date:06/27/2023
Mood:very sleepy
Listening to:my 120 hour long spotify playlist
WOAH hai it has been a HOT SECOND since I made a blog entry LOL
I'm very sleepy right now. ive been avoiding making a blog juz bcuz i know it was going 2 use up a lot of my energy && ive been focuzed on trying 2 draw (which... i have not started still). i think(?) lots of things have happened but my memory is really bad i dont know.
I am so scared to start my shrines because i want them to be GOOD but what happens if theyre not good. that'd be really embarrassing. im still new 2 coding im worried ill make the worse shrine evr && evry1 will laugh at me. um. i made mai art page :3 it looks good now somewhat & i enjoy seeing all my art laid out liek that it makes me proud bcuz wow i am SO talented. My next art piece is going to be a redraw of a 2020 redraw of a 2016 drawing (aka my first digital drawing on firealpaca). im exited for it but i had some issues coming up w/ ideas since the oc is... very ... boring. im excited 2 shoew it tho x3. ummzz ya. i had a lot more i wanted 2 say but my brain is NAWT werking rn.
i rlly want 2 work on my analoceit au "to the tune of your death", which i mite do 2mrrw? or .um. i dont know. its hard juggling everything i want 2 do when im plagued by a chronic illness. (spoonie moment). i wan 2 code & draw & write & dance & read & watch video essayz but i end up doing None of them & stare at a wall it sux.
my best friend dani came over on sunday & spent da nite !!! we had sew much fun, i made him make a neocities (@ st4rsh4ped) && we playd minecraft & human fall flat & it waz fun & silly !!!111!1 also we learned that i talk in my sleep & he snores. apparently i talked abt tv & breakfast LAWLZ. we were supposed 2 go thrifting but he waz wiff hiz BOYFRIEND. UNTIL 3 AM & THEN STAYED UP UNTIL 6 AM. & THEN BY THE TIEM WE HAD 2 HANG OUT HE WAZ SLEEPING !!!1!11!! -_- nawt upset at all butz it waz very terrifying bcuz i am autistic LAWLZ XD
i want 2 ummz work on formatting all my pagez 4 mobile & thenn umm.... i want 2 redo sum of da text on da home & abt pagez i think. im alzo trying 2 make a sitemap but apparently itz the most boring thing ever & i havent started. i also wan 2 add sum secret pagez but i dont know.... wat. of? juz. anything? whatevr? i dont know. i want moar silly things so maybe ill go thru moar neocities 4 sum inspo :3
ummz... iz dat everything i dun kno. im sew tired . oh my god firewalker with me by the garages just came up & im going 2 start crying over blaseballa gain i miss it so bad i really wish it didnt have 2 end. im crying . rest in violence. oh god ok.
OH MY GOD I WANTED 2 SHOW MY MONSTERHIGH DOLLS ok that should be done onnn interests page im just unsure where it would go? rn all my stuff is on the front page i have no idea where stuff would go. i also want to do a page abt my pets! (and maybe a page abt my past pets, like my two rats John & Roman. i miss them a lot). im very sensitive righ tnow i think i dont know why. um. i also want to add like... wind blowing noises to the entrance page. i should be writing this all down i kind of forgot 2 do that. also i want to fix the playlists on my blog & home pages, bcuz it transfers 2 Every page which.. isnt what i want. I wanted one playlist for my home & about & then oneplaylist 4 my blog.
im vry motivatied 2 write but its abt 2 b 1 am & i need 2 stawp staying up sew late but i wan 2 write so bad so now im in a weird state of wanting to do something but knowing i shouldnt.
i feel like super bad i think i used up a lot of my spoons hanging out with dani or something but ive been so dizzy lately & brain foggighs
sometimes i wonder if im dying.